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[29 Jan 2005|09:54pm] |
I'm freakin bored. It's a Saturday night and I'm already home. My fucktard parents made me come home early tonight because they knew I was out with boys, and I'd be the only girl there. Whatever.
So this layout's really pissing me off. I need a new one, but I'm much too lazy to make one. Oh well, no one reads my journal anyways.
I'm actually thinking about going to bed. It's 9:55 pm. My life is lame. 82 days until I get my license. Fuck yea. This house will see me no more once that happens. Kay. Lame entry. I'm out.
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| Super Tired |
[13 Jan 2005|05:21pm] |
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I've been 4 times lazier then usual this entire week. I don't think I did my homework once...not even bothered to copy it from anyone. I'm so not going to do good in English this quarter. I don't find myself caring all that much anymore though.
I hate it how now that I'm a Junior, college is suddenly thrown into my face. SAT's are in March. I haven't even thought of SAT's until this week. I can't believe I'm going to take them so soon. Sure I want to be an Architect and stuff, it'd just be nice if I didn't have to try. I'm such a waste. I realized this earlier this year. I come home, eat, then sit in front of the computer for hours. Then I finally decide I need a shower. Then I go to sleep. So I'm getting a job. I wanted to apply at the Movie Gallary, but they think I'm going to steal their porn. Meaning, I have to be 18...super lame. I hate laws like that. So I guess I'm either applying at McDonalds or Wendy's, more then likely McD though. Ew, I can't imagine myself working there. I was hoping for a more chill place like a movie rental store...but hey...I can't help it that their rules are stupid. I'm out. I'm in a bad mood.
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[02 Jan 2005|01:55pm] |
By request I've been told to update this more often. Lmao.
New Years Eve blew. I stayed home, clean my room, then went to sleep right after the ball dropped. Lame. Yes.
New Years wasn't too bad though. It was my mom's 50th birthday. Nick & John came over. That was fun. We didn't do much but watch TV though. My basement was taken over by all of my mom's friends. So we were forced to stay in the computer room. The psycho bitch that wants to be me, didn't come. Thank god. Her mom did though, and I think she overheard me talking about how much I hate her. She'll be mad that she didn't come since she's like in love with my friends. Well, I'm out. I have nothing more to talk about. My life is lame.
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| It's Christmas Eve |
[24 Dec 2004|10:42pm] |
When we die, our bodies become the grass, and the antolope eat the grass. We are all connected into the circle of life. OMFG, Lion King on Broadway was fucking awesome.
So my parents were planning on building an condo in the Philippines. Well scrap that idea. Stupid zoning isues only allow the building to have 5 units, we need a total of 8...or its no deal. But there's this property near Atinayo (sp??). Hopefully my rents will buy it. I really want a house there so we can visit more.
Well everyone, have a Merry Christmas. I'll be back sooner or later to tell ya'll what I got.
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| Well Hello There! |
[03 Dec 2004|04:54pm] |
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So I haven't posted in a while. I actually forgot I even owned a journal until Anna showed me hers.
So what's new with me since it's been more then a month since I've posted? I turned 16. My dad bought me a car. It's gorgeous, and I love it to death. It's a black 2004 Chevy Malibu. Oh and I have my permit so I can drive it. Only a little more then 4 months until I can drive it by myself.
I'm officially 100% single. It's actually for the better. Nick (Tom for those at PB) and I are actually talking a lot more then we used to. There's not that akwardness between us anymore. We're cool. I just hope that if him and I never end up being anything more then friends, that we'll become each other's best friends like we used to be. Like we used to be towards the end of last school year. When I was in New York, he was the one that would always call me. He was the one that cared about how my day was when I was there. I could tell him anything and everything, and not feel stupid. I couldn't even do that with my girl friends whom I've known since the 4th grade. I just hope I didn't lose that, because to me, that'd be losing close to everything. It's bad to have your happiness depend on just one person, but I just don't know how I'd react if we were to one day not be friends anymore.
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| 13 Days |
[01 Oct 2004|09:22pm] |
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Guess who's turning Sweet 16 in 13 Days????? Me, bitch!
I'm still hoping despite what my dad says that I get a car. I mean his reasoning is good, but still it's nice to hope. He says that he would buy me one, but since I'm only getting my permit it would be a waste of money to pay insurance for 6 months. Oh well. But I'd be damn cute behind the wheel of a navy blue Mini Copper with a white roof and 2 white stripes....or you know a Honda Civic. Either way, I'd be a very happy girl.
I <3 Degrassi much. The new season is going to be awesome.
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| I'm A Failure |
[29 Sep 2004|05:05pm] |
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I had two tests today, AP Chem II and American Cultures. Failed them both with flying colors! Give me a medal dammit!
Why do I like making guys jealous? Haha. If I know a guy likes me, I'll purposely flirt with other guys to make him jealous. It's on my not to do list. Let's stop. It's not nice.
So 16 days until my Sweet 16! Yesterday I hoped into my dad's car, and there was a bunch of car brochures...mostly the Honda Civic Hybrid. Well, then? What are we doing with this?? That'd be so badass if I got a hybrid. Gas is outragiously high right now, and if they think I can afford it...they're insane.
Speaking of my birthday, my mom just bought me her gift for me. A Coach purse. I really wanted this really cute, red one with the C's on them...but my mom wouldn't get it for me. She said that too many people have the knock off. So I got another one. I'm excited to be able to use it. I LOVE Coach, it's my second one. Yay for my silly fetish for designer purses!
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[27 Sep 2004|06:22pm] |
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"Because of Ashley, I'm listening to really mushy love songs.
Right now I just want a boy. I want to really care for a guy, and be cared for back. I want to hold hands, cuddle, kiss, hug, be silly with, and just stare into his eyes when we talk.  Dammit, I need some loving. "
That's what I posted on Punk'd.
Lately I've been denying that I really do miss having a boyfriend, but I'm done denying it. The last boyfriend I had was last November, but I hardly even want to count that. It was more like, "Hey, we like making out..lets date." Mistake, I admit it. I just see one of my friends being able to drop the, "I Love You." and mean it. I want that. I don't want just anyone for the sake of having a boyfriend. That's stupid. I've been there, done that...and never going back. It's much more rewarding when you've actually put effort into a relationship. I just don't want the instant hookup anymore. I'm not saying I want a huge long term relationship that will one day turn into a marriage. I'm not looking for a husband. I'm only 15. Just someone who I can honestly say I love, and someone you can say it back. Someone that I don't have to to spend an hour in front of the mirror just to look nice for him. He wouldn't care if I just rolled out of bed. He'd accept me just for me.
I'm a hopeless romantic...sue me.
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| Guitar |
[26 Sep 2004|02:15pm] |
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Last night I had a couple of my friends come over and help me learn the guitar. Alex told me I suck and should stick to the piano. :P I'll show him. It's not my fault my hand's little, and I can't play some chords. I don't like my guitar anymore. John just got a new one. His sounds a lot nicer. I like my strings better though, they hurt my fingers less.
I have chem homework to do. A lot of it too, but I left my book at school. I have to do it all by 5th period tomorrow. Maybe I'll do it in Theo, we never do anything in that class anyways.
I'm thinking about making my journal friends only. I don't know yet though. I'll think about it.
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| I Got Asked |
[24 Sep 2004|04:41pm] |
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One of my best friends asked me to Homecoming today. I said yes. Now that I have my dress, shoes, gloves, & date..I'm set for homecoming. I just need a guy flower. What are they called? Buteneers? I think? I don't know. So I can relax the next few weeks. Help me pick out how I should do my hair. Give me pictures! Come on! Do it. I need suggestions.
Oh yea, remember Andy? The kid from my last post. He called me to tell me that he was sorry for being such an asshole. And to prove he was sorry, he'd stop smoking. :D
Its been a good day.
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| Here We Go... |
[21 Sep 2004|05:33pm] |
Look at me. After a full year of not blogging, I'm back. Exciting? No not really, but oh well.I know this isn't the greatest LJ ever, but I don't need the greatest LJ ever. I just need a place to vent. I'd like to thank the ladies at Punk'd for helping me out. I appreciate it. Enough intro stuff though.
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I really hate instant messaging. ICQ, AIM, MSN...hate it all. I wish I had never gotten start with it. Offline I'm so careful of things I say, I actually think before I say things, because I know if I say something wrong I might be hurting someone's feelings. I can't stand to look at someone and purposely insult them. Last night on ICQ I pretty much lost one of my best friends. One of the sweetest guys I have ever met. All over something stupid. All he did was tell me he started smoking, and that he lost a friend over it. The friend he lost just happens to be my best friend. So he came to me for help. Naturally I was there for him. Over the course of a 2 hour conversation we started fighting more and more. Not even about smoking, more about his attitude over the whole thing. I tried giving him advice, but everything I told him he shot down. Then he started getting all pissy about it. I had enough of it. I went off on him. How stupid and arrogent he was acting towards me when all I did was try to help. He told me he was sorry, but he typed, "Sry." I told him if he was really sorry, he'd atleast type out the whole word and to get back to me when he really means it. While I was sending it, he got off. That fucker. His current away message says, "fuck you." If I were an imature bitch, I'd type fuck you right back in my away. But whatever. I'm through. Unless he wants to say I'm Sorry the right way, I'm over it.
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